It’s been a bit of a funny month January. I’ve felt a mixture of pure stress and felt pushed to my limits, whilst at the same time feeling really motivated with an urge to make progress in different areas of my life. So today I thought I’d just have a bit of a ramble about what I’ve been doing and how I’m trying to keep on track with the million and one things I need to get done.
I’m sorry if I sound like a broken record, but some of you reading this may not know where I’m at. As I’m entering into my final term, of my final year at Uni the pressure is well and truly on. If I make it to the end of this year without having a breakdown it will be a minor miracle because, as any final year student will tell you, there is just so much to do and think about.
First of all, there’s the dreaded dissertation. By April I need to have handed in 10,000 words and it needs to be amazing to make sure I do well in my degree overall. I won’t lie I haven’t been feeling good about it, in all honesty, I and a lot of my friends have been unknowingly lazy in our first term and left the bulk of the work to be completed in the next couple of months. In short I have another 8,000 words to write *nervous laughter*. I’ve had everything from crying about my workload, to dry and rashy skin around my eyes brought on by stress, it’s safe to say it’s been taking it’s toll. However the other day I had a brainwave and lots of ideas started coming to me and I managed to get a big chunk of work done in the space of a couple of hours. This has been a huge confidence boost as I’ve been having some serious writers block, both in my studies and with my blog, hence there wasn’t any content over Christmas and New Year. I’m starting to feel really positive again about my writing and actually ENJOYING posting it for you lot, which is something that had started to wane in the last few weeks of last year.
Another huge boost for me has been getting my exam results back! The reason, as I mentioned above that this month has been so stressful, is the fact that I had exams which I knew counted for something so therefore I obviously thought I had failed them. After a couple of weeks of nervously waiting, I’ve had the grades back and not to blow my own trumpet, but I think I’ve done pretty well and I’m now back on track for a 2:1 in my degree, pheeeew. Obviously exams are not the be all and end all of life, but it does make you feel a whole lot better and it’s interesting to note that my sudden brainwave for my dissertation came approximately 10 minutes after the worry of my results was lifted. Clearly I’d been focussing too much on worrying and negative feelings of stress instead of alleviating the stress by doing work.
The next thing I need to sink my teeth into is looking at jobs and starting to apply for something in the grown up world, basically I need to start adulting. I’d just like to take this moment to say a big thanks to my boyfriend Josh, who when I recently had a meltdown about leaving Uni and not being able to find any jobs I liked, was a huge help. He very calmly got on lots of job websites and started finding cool writing roles he thought I might like to apply for. As it turns out, he was right, there are jobs in places other than London and contrary to what was being advertised there are Grad Jobs for people wanting to be things other than an Accountants- thank god!
Whilst I’m in the process of updating you about my whole life, I might as well tell you about some of my plans for the summer! I’m super excited to be going on a sun holiday to Lanzarote with my family and grandparents to just lounge about and soak up the sun. I haven’t been on a holiday like this for a couple of years because I like to go and explore rather than lay by a pool, but I think that when the time comes I will be ready for a well earned rest and relax. Another exciting thing that comes alongside that is that I get to buy holiday clothes. I am trying to buy more responsibly in the clothing department and some of you may know i’ve tried to implement a capsule wardrobe, however I am super low on the lightweight summer clothes front. Over the next few months I will be keeping my eye out for some nice shorts and vests, as I am the Queen of under-packing for a summer holiday. In short for once I do actually need to buy a certain category of clothes.
Talking of holidays, there is another one on the cards, it’s not been booked yet but we’re talking any day now. I’m so so excited because me and Josh are looking at going to Rome for a few days in summer. I’ve never been and being such a history and classical civilisations nerd it’s like the dream location for me, the thought of looking round the Colosseum literally makes me giddy. We love to explore new places, get a feel for the history, the food and the culture so I feel like this will be the perfect break for us, especially as it will feel like a reward for finishing my degree. If anybody has any suggestions of anything to do or see when we’re there please let me know in the comments below. Keep your eyes peeled for more travel blog posts in future!
You might have seen in one of my previous posts that I’ve been eating Veggie, I’m not sticking to a 100% strictly vegetarian diet, but I will admit I do feel physically good. I don’t mean weight wise, more that I feel alert, on the ball and healthy so that’s always a plus! I’m also pushing to do a little bit of exercise to keep fit. It’s simple things such as yesterday, instead of getting a taxi I walked home from a volunteer session, it didn’t feel that far but it was actually 1.5 miles and I felt good afterwards!
Finally I’m feeling back on track with my blog, I’ve not quite decided what my schedule is going to be this year, as my timetable is different to last term or if I’m even going to have one at all, but I’m going to try and post as regularly as possible. However if I do fail to get a post up every now and then please bare with me as there will be a reason (I’ll be stuck down an assignment wormhole) and trust me I’ll be more upset than you about it.
So there you have it, a little bit of an update about what I’ve been doing and how I’m feeling a few weeks into 2018. I’m happy to say that I’m feeling positive and I’m hopefully on track, I’ll try to keep you posted as much as I can about what I’m doing! Also if you have any suggestions about blog content that you’d like to see please feel free to comment down below, or if I know you in real life, drop me a message or tell me in person I would love to hear from you!
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